frustration

I am struggling to produce a coherent body of work. Either I lack the focus to complete an idea, or I am picking ideas that aren't interesting enough to focus on through to completion. I believe that I am forcing ideas. Maybe I don't need to be painting right now. I can't tell if the work I am producing is any good. It is certainly, at best, schizophrenic. I am trying to focus my energy on an idea. I know that I need to be drawing, but whenever I sit down to draw I am almost instantly bored, distracted, or just annoyed. I am hoping that the teaching job-- if it ever comes-- will be a good way to sort out thoughts and by steering others wind up on the right track myself.

All the themes that I come up with to work under wind up being constrictive. I know that I am not thinking properly, not "using the world" the right way, but I seem mentally unable to get any further than this. It all leads me to question why I feel the need to paint at all. I am chronically uninspired, or at best distracted.

I am unwilling to give up but seemingly unable to get past this.